The School of Life

Once viewed as a kind of long dream that meant nothing and could be forgotten about as soon as it was over, childhood is now conceived of as a momentously consequential period in which the entire emotional disposition of a person will be formed and their chances of a mentally healthy life determined.

Whenever more casual relationships threaten to reveal the ‘difficult’ side of our natures, we tend to blame the partner – and call it a day. As for our friends, they predictably don’t care enough about us to have any motive to probe our real selves. They only want a nice evening out. Therefore, we end up blind to the awkward sides of our natures. On our own, when we’re furious, we don’t shout, as there’s no one there to listen – and therefore we overlook the true, worrying strength of our capacity for fury. Or we work all the time without grasping, because there’s no one calling us to come for dinner, how we manically use our jobs to gain a sense of control over life – and how we might cause hell if anyone tried to stop us labouring. At night, all we’re aware of is how sweet it would be to cuddle with someone, but we have no opportunity to face up to the intimacy-avoiding side of us that would start to make us cold and strange if ever it felt we were too deeply committed to someone. One of the greatest privileges of being on one’s own is the flattering illusion that one is, in truth, really quite an easy person to live with.

With such a poor level of understanding of our characters, no wonder we aren’t in any position to know who we should be looking out for.

The road to greater confidence begins with a ritual of telling oneself solemnly every morning, before heading out for the day, that one is a muttonhead, a cretin, a dumbbell and an imbecile. A few more acts of folly should, thereafter, not matter very much.

Travels are often filled with small pleasures.

‘ALL OF MAN’S
UNHAPPINESS
COMES FROM HIS
INABILITY TO
STAY ALONE IN
HIS ROOM.’
Blaise Pascal

modern world purports to respect both introverts and their opposites but, in practice, the action, the rewards and the glamour are all precisely designed to synchronise with the talents and sensibilities of those in the extroverted camp.

failing to make the correct accommodation with our introversion is a fast route to overload and ensuing anxiety and paranoia.

we may all have become easier to meet, but we are not, perhaps, any easier to love.

We are infinitely more likely to forgive someone who has a good sense of what they need to be forgiven for than someone who maintains their innocence against all odds.

It should never be taken as an insult to be asked how we are mad.
It merely means that someone else is interested enough to find out the specific ways in which we partake in the universal tendency towards oddity and difficulty

We don’t notice how stubborn and unfair we can be when there is no one on whom to exercise our flaws.
We can’t see how weird we are about the contents of the fridge and the right way to say certain words.