Stuff I've Been Feeling Lately

You want the happily ever after

you always thought you deserved,

but the only thing actually promised

in this life is uncertainty.

I’m not the one who got away.
Late nights and loneliness
have built me up in your head.
Letting go of even the wrong heart
can play tricks on one’s mind,
confusing two souls that
once mated for soul mates.
So, please, the next time
the smell of Chanel fills up a room
and you find yourself
reminded of me, remember:
I never even wore perfume

to friends and enemies,

to happy birthdays and hungover mornings,