This Is How You Lose Her – Exp

Revenge is living well, without you.

There should be stars for great wars

Out of nowhere you said, I love you. For whatever it’s worth.

She’s sensitive, too. Takes to hurt the way water takes to paper.

That’s about it. In the months that follow you bend to the work, because it feels like hope, like grace—and because you know in your lying cheater’s heart that sometimes a start is all we ever get.

There are surprises and there are surprises and then there is this.

And (c) you have this ridiculous hope that maybe one day she will forgive you

You make it through both semesters, barely. It really is a long stretch of shit and then finally the madness begins to recede. It’s like waking up from the worst fever of your life. You ain’t your old self (har-har!) but you can stand near windows without being overcome by strange urges, and that’s a start. Unfortunately, you’ve put on forty-five pounds. You don’t know how it happened but it happened. Only one pair of your jeans fits anymore, and none of your suits. You put away all the old pictures of her, say good-bye to her Wonder Woman features. You go the barber,

You stop sleeping, and some night when you’re drunk and alone you have a wacky impulse to open the window of your fifth-floor apartment and leap down to the street

Mejor que nunca.
Except you’re not.