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"His boyfriend was your queer awakening, and then you ended up dating his little brother. James, you're lucky he loves you so much, or I think he'd try to kill you, mate."

"I asked what your queer awakening was," Evan says slowly.

"Oh, right. Remus, third year," James replies, then freezes as his eyes widen. "Wait, fuck, don't tell Sirius."

"I love him," Regulus breathes out, his voice thick.

"It'll pass," Barty says softly.

"I asked what your queer awakening was," Evan says slowly.

"Oh, right. Remus, third year," James replies, then freezes as his eyes widen. "Wait, fuck, don't tell Sirius."

"Remus John Lupin," Sirius says sharply, "I love you so very much, but your taste in books is shit, and frankly, I'm embarrassed to be seen with you."

"I rather like your freckles, actually," Sirius tells him, giving him a bright grin. "You know what it was? I had the thought that I wanted to connect them all like constellations, and then you asked what I was looking at you for—" He clears his throat and pitches his voice higher. "What are you looking at, posh boy? So rude. And you were scowling. Thinking back, it was really cute, but what was I meant to say? Can I draw on your freckles? I did not have the range of emotional maturity to say that at eleven, so I said they were stupid instead."

"That was really quite gay of you," Regulus says, making Sirius sputter. "Even I wasn't that gay at eleven. His freckles, Sirius? And it took you as long as it did to figure it all out?"

Sit down, would you? I miss you."

"I'm literally right here, Sirius."

"You could be closer, though."

"The good news is, I moved on from Lily. I'm not in love with her anymore," James says weakly. "The shocking news is, I'm now utterly, irreparably in love with your little brother."

"I just never feel like I'm enough."